heatherheggie: I stayed awake last night from 1-3am worried and praying for my Sar Bear. I had sone good mommy conversations with her this past week and for 9 years old she still amazes me. I am heavy hearted about her thoughts about herself, friendships and social dynamics. I acknowledged her hurts at school and lack of feeling " important" her words-- gosh I SO get motivated to hear that knowing I want to do everything in my power to make sure at home she feels DEEPLY and securely loved in such a way that if she had to define love she could confidently use her parental love as an example--- gosh she stretches me like no other kid in our family- in such a great way-- to be a better person, Christian, mom, wife, friend, neighbor etc.. It's as if I have a chance to model Jesus' love for me with her more than the others because she cares so much... So I prayed and prayed last night that she would feel peace and love from Jesus even if not from friends- and for more Christian friends too-- then this am she walked in my room earlier than usual looking beautiful, rested and gorgeous for a 9 year old in jammies!! I was taken a back at how beautiful she looked physically and her demeanor was soft and peaceful-- thank you God. I am a believer in mornings and if it holds true I think she will have a great day today because it just felt like it looking at her. I love you Sar Bear to the absolute core of me and may you never feel alone or unimportant again- even for a minute! YOU matter and God has great things for you, even for today!! Love you!! I'm proud to be YOUR mommy!!