Monday, October 31, 2011
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
After our 12 year old blue expedition just died this week for its final drive- the Heggie's got a new car! Woo hoo! Yes, it's true we went crazy and way outside the box... Yep- we got another Expedition! I know, I know, boring to some, comfort to me-- plus I have air conditioning and a CD player- nothing boring at all!! :-) do you need a ride? If love to pick YOU up!!!
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
Monday, October 24, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
Once in a while by 8am you are start your day do heavenly- with friends... One out of state friend shares a lovely God moment, one great friend drops off bagels at our home, one special friend we shared a moment of concern over family things, one friend confirmed dinner plans with our families-- gosh ladies-- I love all of my girlfriends and feel blessed you are in my life-- thank you for the JOY of friendship I'm beaming today already!! ❤"
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
Monday, October 17, 2011
Luke asks me " how do you know if a mommy and daddy are going to break up and not stay married? Your parents didn't stay married mommy were the problems REALLY big? Gulp by me... Gearing up for " the talk" Hannah chirps in " mommy will ALWAYS be with daddy- since he's such a good kisser!" hilarious and well Sparkles your JOY saved me and caused us all to laugh!!
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
The way I touch Jon's arm in the middle of the night and the way our toes touch ( thru my socks) in bed are sone of the happiest sweetest moments I have being married... I love his deep breathing and warm touch and feel 100% securely loved by him-- what a gift marriage is- whew hard, but amazing... I love putting a drink out each night on counter simply to acknowledge that my heart is right each night before you walk in from work to love on you properly. It started out as an act of appreciation for you, but that small pausing in cooking helps me to prioritize the rest of my night- it's a new heart shift from kids and food to hubby- it's become a gift to me--to focus on him and God-- love you Jon Christopher Heggie thank you for marrying me!!
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
These last two weeks have been a bit of a struggle for my Luke and his glasses. He has started to become self conscious and not liking wearing them at all. He wants be like everyone else and not different. He feels like a " nerd" in his 7 year old words and feels like being smart ( which he is) is negative and not a good thing b/c that's what nerds are-- oh the tears he has break my heart b/c he is such an amazing boy with a heart of gold a gift at school-- but now he's frustrated by his own gifts- academically. A few kids made fun of him and he can't shake the feelings no matter how much I tell him he's social wonderful, etc- it doesnt soak in for him from me. A sweet, special boy at school ran up to me in the moddle of two class parties just to tell me how cool luke looked in his glasses last week at baseball-- wow i cried instantly and knew God intersected this boy and me perfectly-- for me to hear it, even tho Luke needs to hear it too-- i guess i did as well!! What a gift to be whimsically surprised by a boy, God and an unwavering love for your son- this beautiful boy named Luke who doesn't know how great he is yet... God help him to fully accept and realize his special gifts and then help him to use them someday!
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
I stayed awake last night from 1-3am worried and praying for my Sar Bear. I had sone good mommy conversations with her this past week and for 9 years old she still amazes me. I am heavy hearted about her thoughts about herself, friendships and social dynamics. I acknowledged her hurts at school and lack of feeling " important" her words-- gosh I SO get motivated to hear that knowing I want to do everything in my power to make sure at home she feels DEEPLY and securely loved in such a way that if she had to define love she could confidently use her parental love as an example--- gosh she stretches me like no other kid in our family- in such a great way-- to be a better person, Christian, mom, wife, friend, neighbor etc.. It's as if I have a chance to model Jesus' love for me with her more than the others because she cares so much... So I prayed and prayed last night that she would feel peace and love from Jesus even if not from friends- and for more Christian friends too-- then this am she walked in my room earlier than usual looking beautiful, rested and gorgeous for a 9 year old in jammies!! I was taken a back at how beautiful she looked physically and her demeanor was soft and peaceful-- thank you God. I am a believer in mornings and if it holds true I think she will have a great day today because it just felt like it looking at her. I love you Sar Bear to the absolute core of me and may you never feel alone or unimportant again- even for a minute! YOU matter and God has great things for you, even for today!! Love you!! I'm proud to be YOUR mommy!!
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
A deep sadness keeps coming back to me and the reality that things may not change is where the sadness creeps in. My dad doesn't need to see me, spend time with me or connect with me the way I do and it shatters pieces of me everytime I become aware of this fact. I believe growing up it was easier to accept simply to use " distance and location" as the excuse verses really accepting the truth. Now, him living 15 min away in my grandma's ok'd house that I frequented constantly over the years now to have only been one time never invited in almost two years crushes me. And, for my kids sake-- he doesn't desire to see them and it SO confuses me that it's not inside of him to be a part of their world in a more present/full way... But no-- I truly feel like a girl clinging to a guy that's not into her and I'm not sure why I continually make attempts to connect and always initiate vs him? Why do I put myself thru this over and over again- it's not a relationship of mutual feelings- more of obligation from him. I'm sad b/c holidays and a dinner once in a while would be plenty -- oh I am so glad Jon is such a fully present daddy to our special kids- wow that gift alone will help them each soar in their own way! Desiring to be near them even when he can't at the fire station is FELT and makes all the difference in the life of a child! Thank you God for giving Jon to my kiddos- I'm sorry dad too that I'm just " not enough" for you- or whatever- I'm sad that really don't know my hopes dreams and greatest passions- simply b/c of lack of time together as father daughter- and I'm sad I don't know you more deeply as well-- what fun it would be to connect in a real and special way-- but accepting that we won't will be my journey. Thank you for saying yes once in a while to dinner at our house- someday, could you ask me over to your house too?? Hmmm doubt it- who am I kidding... I forgive you, I'm just sad- what little girl doesn't want to feel love from her dad? None. What adult girl doesn't want to feel love from her dad? None. Today I will ficus on my blessings and be grateful for all I DO have in family and love and friends-- I am so richly blessed...
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
Friday, October 14, 2011
Sometimes God gives you LEMONADE instead of lemons-- walking at school today in between two class parties one of the best 2nd grade boys I know stops me ( the mom!) and says: " hey I really think Luke's sports glasses look great on him at baseball!" I started to cry knowing that the past few weeks have been difficult in this particular area and a sweet, SPECIAL boy, named Grant made ALL the difference in MY day, as the mom-- God is SO good! Thank you Bryn for your son...you have NO idea...wow...
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
A friend found out awful news about her mom's health tonight and obviously my emotions went straight to my mom-- oh how I am not ready for any such a time to deal with that with regards to my mom.. I want to purposefully not take my time left with my mom for granted and just love her up... As best I can.. Love you mom- you are my gift- in every way to me!! Xoxo
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
Picture for all my kids occurred yesterday- they all looked gorgeous... But as I stared at my sar- bear I just couldn't get my eyes off of how beautiful she loomed to me! Her physical yes, but her co
True comfort in her skin and easy of moving and smiling... I loved looking at her- just being her, helpful, loving and sweet-- oh I didn't want her to go to school that day, I wanted to hold her all morning and snatch her up in my lap all day-- my first princess is now 9 years old and gorgeous-- God thank you for lending me YOUR Sarah to experience this side of heaven- she inspires ME!!
Love you Sar Bear!!
Love you Sar Bear!!
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
There is something I never take for granted as I close my blinds every night for bed, in the dark-- the beautiful LIT up huge white cross on the hill we get to see nightly. What small and big comfort it brings me on the joyous times and the tough nights- my regular habit of closing shutters never gets old or routine looking at the cross of Jesus-- so if you were to ask me my favorite part of my house- it's nit the walls or big kitchen, it's the stunning view of my savior on a hill... Thank you to the man who decided to build and light up that cross nightly-- it has and will continue to make a large impact in my life!!
Heather Heggie
760-496-8029
760-496-8029
Saturday, October 1, 2011
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